First Time Gathering
by Jim Neill
This is a strange!
I have no idea what they are doing…
“ Creating a Container – Calling the Directions”
Guys telling stories and reading poems.
What guy reads poetry?
Guys talking with no bull shit.
And even hugging one another,
This just freaks me out.
How did they make this happen?
Sharing – I mean really sharing!
Guys talking of feeling alone in a room full of people,
Fessing up to not being able to “get it up”,
Guys hating work and always “keep a lid on it”.
Some of it is pretty amazing
Talking of fears and failures.
And showing no shame.
It seems to give some of ‘um peace.
In a weird way it makes sense.
How am I doing with all this?
Honestly, I never felt this accepted – anywhere!
Damn-who knew, “I am not that different.”
I guess am more whole than I ever imagined.
Me?
It’s like I finally get what church is about …
These guys are like me.
And connecting with other guys, is crazy amazing!
Tomorrow is work.
What if it all stops?
The connections, the energy the raw maleness.
How do I explain where I have been to my wife or at work?
Home may be the scariest part.
What if I loose all this???
Post Gathering with my brothers – April 2014 Jim Neill